A glimpse of vision, a passion, a stirring. I feel it. No. I feel Him. Spirit. Answered prayer.
He comes so mysteriously, coupled with excitement and hope. A calling?....maybe. A purpose?...most definitely! And, again, I am hopeful. My life is opening up. Opportunities are all around. This tunneled vision that I once had has been broadened to include things once forgotten. I am alive!
Clarity?...coming. The clouds of confusion slowly disappearing to reveal a vibrant Light.
Clarity?...Where have you been?
A sigh of relief…
A distant voice slowly grows louder.
A loosely painted picture gaining colorful detail.
“We turn, and give ourselves body, soul, and spirit back to God, asking him to cleanse our hearts and make them new. And He does. He gives us a new heart. And He comes to dwell there, in our hearts. If we believed that…we could do anything. We would follow Him anywhere!” -John Eldredge, Waking the Dead
Full belief?...not yet. I still have my doubts and fleshly limitations.
Joyful and hopeful?...yes!
God is stirring my heart!
For a week now I have been purposefully asking God to awaken the Spirit within me. My request has been for a thirst for the Word, a purpose to cling to, for my eyes to be opened, and for my ears to hear His direct call. And, I can say that my prayers, the Spirit’s cries, have not gone unanswered. My heart is starting to believe. Freedom is out there.
Where the Spirit of the LORD is, there is freedom.
Currently, I have a lot on my mind. Good things, nonetheless! But, I struggle to bring words to the surface. I don’t know what to say about the change in my heart. The enlightenment?...Its not drastic, but like a boulder being pushed over a hill, things are slowly, or rather quickly, gaining momentum. I am certain that time will bring a clearer picture.
Basically, I have been asking God to point me in a direction…a direction specific to me. I have asked for instances to stir my passions and for my heart to be keenly aware. And though I don’t know the picture God is painting, I DO know that they will be in line with His Heart. Please continue to pray with me that I would listen and obey!
Part of the change I can attribute to God using a story of someone else. It was strongly suggested to me as well as others that I follow a blog about a young, Christ follower living in Africa. I mindlessly printed off her writings on her blog which dated back to the two previous years. A little pre bed reading material?...You bet! The first night I started reading and quickly became encouraged, awakened, and enthralled as I journeyed into Uganda, Africa myself. Three nights later, one hundred and fifty pages later, and still only half of her time in Africa covered. Yet she writes so simply, exquisitely illustrating with words a culture, an experience, and a god in Africa. I cant capture with my words what she does with hers. So I will add my personal recommendation to the list. If you want to see one example of an individual completely dependent and sold out for Christ and the work that requires, then you really should journey to her page and see firsthand what God is doing through her willing life. You will be moved! You will be humbled!
If you do decide to read her story, I have found it best to start with 2007 and work your way to the present. Just click on the year of postings that you want to read on the right hand side of her page and you can read in order
http://www.kissesfromkatie.
thanks. and goodnight.
jmh
